arghhh...
i am getting real bek chey now!! i can't sign in into msn despite trying for a lot of times. hope that it is not because my laptop is having some problem...haiz...everything seems to oppose me...nothing goes right for me. so today, went swimming in the morning with huiyun and badminton during the afternoon with huiyun, shijuan and eileen. hope that i did lose some weight...haha...have to lose the weights that i have gained during the past few days. but i am just wondering how are we going to lose weight especially when there is food temptation everywhere after exercising...hahaha...we just love foods!! tomorrow, we will be going through the same routine as today which is to swim and play badminton...haha...people might think that we are crazy but then it is also a good way for us to destress...
i just don't understand why are things in a mess when it is happening on me. i am like not able to handle small problems which can be solve easily. people tend to say that it is important to stay calm when problems happen and i always believe that it is true.but when problems really exist, i find it really hard to stay calm. at times, i really find that i am thinking in a complicated way and that's why i am always having worries. i always tend to think in a negative way and make myself become so stress up. i am so scared that i will end up getting depression one day.hahaha...
'DO I REALLY LOVE MYSELF?'
this is the question that i have been asking myself recently. the truth is at times i don't really love myself. i also don't know why but i just feel that i am a bad person doing all those bad things. this is just the feeling that i am having.. i am just some irresponsible person.
"AM I CARING FOR OTHERS OR JUST FOR MYSELF?"
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