somethings are just so disappointing...
i find that i am always in the wrong. the guilty feelings just never fail to come!! why oh why?? life is becoming to be so miserable. i hate life even more! people say that life have their ups and downs but i don't see the ups in my life. most of the times, i only see the downs.
things are piling up even more this week.. so many test to go through and the crm project is due tomorrow. so stressed up!! the law test is still waiting for me to study. omg!! everything is squeezed in a week.
so happy to see you though it's only once a week!! hahaha... because of you, monday don't seems so blue. haha...
this post seems so weird to me! LOL...sorry guys! haha...i am just so tired and i am beginning to post rubbish feelings here.. haha... i better go off to study law!! arghhh...hope tml crm's presentation will be good!!
"SEEING YOU BRIGHTENS UP MY LIFE!!"
10:31 PM
my butt and leg are aching so much!!
yesterday reach home at 6plus after the night cycling trip! so tired and i almost gave up lah.. the first time having night cycling was indeed tough. i think i am gonna hate cycling for dunno how long already. haha...i dunno how am i going to survive on the actual day. how can a beginner cyclist leads a group of 10? LOL... the suay thing was i fell down in a kerp at a part of the zebra crossing. i didn't know that i was bleeding until zhirong told me. haha...but thanks winnie for applying the antiseptic for me. then at the endless road there, there was some kind of crash because of me. my brake was so sudden that the guy behind me can't brake in time so he banged into me and then the other guy behind jumped off his bike to avoid the crash. omg! i feel so guilty lah... i dunno why but when i brake, it is very sudden one and i was so afraid when there is people cycling behind me lor.. i am really doubting whether i can be the student leader during the actual day of the night cycling anot. but it's amazing that i didn't faint halfway or what. haha...
just now dad drive us along the road of mediacorp and the house there was really nice...i also dunno what to describe lah! haha...but there was mostly the rich staying cos the bungalows there was soo superior type. i like it alot! how i wish i am staying there..LOL...how i wish, how i wish, how i wish. haha...
there are so many stuffs this week. it's like never ending and i hate it lah.. why can't the holidays come faster?? i want my holidays now!!
sometimes the attitude that people give are so cold that i got a feeling they don't like me. i dunno but hope they are not!
"I LOVE CAR RIDES!!"
4:11 PM
i am so happy now because i just found out that comm toolkit lesson is cancel which means i don't have to go to school tomorrow. woolala... hope there is no make up lesson. please don't make me happy for nothing. i am so worry about this module cos we have to give a 2 mins speech in front next week and i think tml will be a practice to train us. i hate presenting especially in front of a class which i don't really know except my group mates. guess next week i will be worrying the whole day for this speech thingy. haha... but i am just so glad that i don't have to go school tomorrow.
anyway, today had 4hours of econs and i can't get the things that is being taught into my mind. so sleepy lah!! hope before the common test i can at least get what is needed to be known into my head. then after econs, went to the night cycling booth and i find it so 'ke lian' cos there is only 1 person signing up. and when the shift is change to us, no one came to sign up. hope tomorrow will be better! sat there for 1 hour and we went to do our crm project. went to the library and went inside a empty room to do research. but my question is too broad till i don't know which is the important info that i need. hope everything goes well cos the presentation will be next week.
"AM I AN IRRITATING PERSON?? HOPE NOT!"
9:05 PM
yes! i am back from the long hours of school i had today. it's extremely long today and i feel like sleeping already. but cannot cannot, i have to find the info for my crm project first. this morning had my law lecture and it was okay! then had our 2 hours of break before attending crm. crm ended for only 1 and a half hour? i don't know but i knew that it was quite short compared to the four hours that we are suppose to have. then because of the red camp briefing, stayed back to wait until 5pm. was so boring so i went to youtube to watch videos and i found one canon in d rock version so nice. i think i will just paste the link here and if u are interested can go see! haha... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Zn5OplT4Po . and just now in class, they spreaded something that is so not true. all those are just false statements okay? haha...but i know they are just joking so that's okay lah...haha... then the briefing was to tell us what we have to do for the red camp. we were arranged to do the touring which we have to follow the secondary school students to guide them to the place that they are suppose to go. i think it's gonna be fun!! haha...
i have decided to change my blog song cos i am currently in love with the song that is playing now. haha...i love it!! it's by shania twain and i simply love the lyrics and everything. the lyrics is posted at my previous entry! thanks to tinghui cos it was through her that i knew this song. haha...
"THINGS WILL ONLY BE ON THE BRIGHT SIDE WHEN YOU GET IT!!"
9:36 PM
yeah!! i am now in school waiting for my BE society meeting. still got half more hours to go so i am now here blogging. haha...
yesterday, went to suntec cos dad wanted to see the malaysia tour exhibition. i am so happy cos i will be going to genting this coming december holidays. woolala... went to meet my brother and mum and jalan besar first because he have soccer practice. after that, went over to suntec and went shopping at carrefour. so fun! there was so many things inside and i enjoy being in there. haha...
today, school as usual! had our els practical and lecture and i seriously don't understand what the teacher is teaching. omg!! have to do self-reading on my own again.i have been saying this to myself so many times but i have never done this. haha... self-motivation! after that was internet web design and we was taught how to design a webpage. it was so fun because we learned what we normally see in blog. it is just so amazing!! haha...then it was law tutorial and we was so scare that we will be asked to answer questions. luckily, today's tutorial was short! haha...
ok...shall stop blogging here! signing off!!
"A BEAUTIFUL AWAKENING"
From this moment on-shania twain
From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on
From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on
I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you
From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on
You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you
From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
From this momentI will love you as long as I live
From this moment on
4:34 PM
woo...i am so tired from doing law tutorial so i am now here blogging...haha... today, went back to school for self practice of violin. haha...enthu sia! LOL... we went for a little while cos we didn't really plan to practice one.haha...casilda was so nice to come to school early to open the clubhouse door. then after that, went to jurong point with jiaxue and huiyun to eat KFC cos they have to go to the construction site to do their btc project. and after that was going home. so tired in the train that i keep dozing off. but it is not surprising cos it's not the first time that i am dozing off. it seems that almost everyday in train, i am sleeping like a log. haha...
something funny happen to my brother just now. cos my dad drank his beer and haven wash the cup. he put the drink at the dinner table so my brother thought that that was crysanthemum tea and he went to drink it. after that, when i saw his face, i was laughing like hell lah. his expression was just so funny making me laugh until my mum and sis said that i am like a siao ding dong. haha...
sometimes, i just feel so 'out' when being with you all. maybe i just don't belong!! some stupid feelings lah...don't bother about me!
ok...back to my tutorial again!!post again tomorrow if i have finish it... haha...
"AM I A LONER??"
10:18 PM
yesterday, had my IS and things just don't seems to goes well. i hate IS alot!! we had a short skit for our IAC activites and i was so suai to draw lots and was the first group to present lah. everytime when it comes to drawing lots, my luck always don't seems to be good. haha...next time better don't buy 4D...LOL...then for comm toolkit, the teacher discussed with us about writing and he let us go early.i just realise that there will be only one more IAC lessons for this term. after that will be common test and then the two weeks break. but then it's like IAC got so much to do. we still have to do an interview and also survey. it seems so difficult!
these two days have been so busy rushing my law assignments. i really hate it lor! every thursday night have to stay up late till 2am to finish the tutorial. omg!! then friday still have so many hours of lecture. friday used to be so good during the last semester cos the modules that we having is so relaxed. but this semester, it was a bit untolerable due to the long hours of lecture in a day. i am so sleepy now. today, in lecture, i was so sleepy that i can hardly keep my eyes open! how good if my eyes is like a fish. can sleep without closing my eyes... haha...wat rubbish am i talking..LOL...but then during els lecture, it was okay because we sitted at the top seats of the lecture and it was quite fun when we talked some joking stuffs during the break. i like joking sessions with you all...haha...
thinking back of what i have learned this module, i really don't know how to answer. the things that i have learnt just seems to not get into my head. i don't know why the els lecturer like to ask me 'do u have any questions?' during tutorial. but i just told him no but it's not because i knew everything that he teach but it's because i don't understand what he is teaching so i got nothing to ask him. i really hope i can pass all the modules!!
tomorrow there will be no practice because the practice days had change don't know to which day le. there will be no more practice on saturday already. so sad!! i am so scare that weekdays i cannot tahan cos by the time i reach home, it will be so late already.
next friday will be the trial trip for the night cycling. the distance that we are cycling seems to be so long. i am so scared that i will faint halfway lah. choy choy!! LOL... my cycling skills is not good. i can't cycle fast or stable lor... but it seems to be fun! first time trying to cycle for 12 hours from 7pm to 7am. wooo.... fun fun..haha...
i am feeling quite guilty over something. hope u are not angry with me. i seems to be so irresponsible... shitieeee...
"STRUGGLING IN A POOL OF DIFFICULTIES SUXS!!"
8:46 PM
i am still so tired after sleeping early yesterday. the feeling of the tiredness is so much more than the normal days when i sleep even later. so weird!! anyway, today first lesson was law lecture for 2 hours. hope i did catch what mrs lee was trying to teach. haha... after that, we were let off early half and hour so we went to eat lunch and the guys said that they wanted to play basketball so we acc them to the basketball court at the sports stadium. watch them play but we was also sitting down there perspiring cos the sun was so hot! then it was crm and it lasted for only 20 mins or so cos we have to go for the monopoly training which is from 2-5. i find it a waste of time sitting there lor though it was fun lah. but i really feel like sleeping. for the first game, i was the richest person. haha...then second game, i became the banker and i find being a banker is quite slack lah...lol... but i did have my fun today. okok...off to finish off my econs tutorial which is due tml!
"WISHFUL THINKINGS..."
10:25 PM
my life is simple and free!!
class start at 11 today. haha...not bad cos i get to sleep more! but met eileen earlier half an hour cos i have to print out the slips for the permit at the library. then it was els lecture and per normal, it was boring and it was raining heavily lor. make me want to sleep more. haha...then after that was our 1 hour break but due to the rain, we have to walk the long cut to canteen 3 though we have to walk in the rain at one small part but we were not drench. then it was iwd and this time, the teacher ordered us not to use our lappy while he is teaching. so the whole lesson we was sitting down there watching him talk lor.haha...what to do?? LOL... finally, the last lesson of the day was law tutorial. i don't know why mrs lee seems to be very fierce on monday. make us so scare of her!! so scary to answer the questions she ask us lor. then after tutorial, went for the make-up lesson for econs. mr ong is so good to give us his time to teach us the lesson that we have missed on wed. so grateful to him though i am still quite blur about that topic. haha...
hope this week is gonna be a week that is free from all assignments. haha...so tired lor... i think i better sleep early today since there is no homework. LOL...if not i am gonna regret next time. kk...byeeee guys!!
"I AM GONNA BE HAPPY NO MATTER WHAT!!"
10:24 PM
hahaha...today is so fun!~
went for violin practice in the morning and we was late because of me. haha... was suppose to meet huiyun 8am at the bus stop but i overslept until 8. wahahaha...was late for half an hour and so reach school at 10. practice ended at 12.30 and it was fun cos we played canon in d again. OMG! the tempo for that song is real fast during the chorus part lor. so difficult to master it! after prac, went to meet the moviefreaks cos it is huihui's birthday today. planned to eat sakae sushi then today no buffet so after that changed to seoul garden which is my favourite but it will cost $20+ so we change again to siam kitchen. in the end, it also cost up to $20. LOL!! the food there is nice and filling but the dishes are so spicy. haha...then after eating, went shopping and i bought a bag. took so long for me to decide what i want. haha... i need more shirts and pants but i got no money! i don't why i spend my money so fast when i did not bought many stuffs. haha...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUIHUI!!
oh ya oh ya...saw leo from star idol today. haha...at first, it was huihui who noticed it first. then she was telling suzanne that that guy standing there looks familiar. then i turned around and was still wondering who he was. i thought was their friend from poly lor but when he looked up, then i realised that it was him. haha...he looked quite different but more handsome lor. haha...wahhh...first time see star outside leh... LOL!!
i am happy and must be happy. LOL...just now we was chatting in the train and they was talking about blogs. then they was saying that almost every entries i am posting are not happy. OMG!! really?? haha... okok...i will try to be more happy and don't let stuffs that is causing me to be unhappy to enter my life.
we took neoprints just now!! haha... here it is:
10:21 PM
what a day! yesterday night was chionging my law tutorial that i didn't have enough time to blog. haha...there is just so much to do! anyway, yesterday went for IS which starts at 3pm. but i woke up at 8.30am to finish up my notes for the writing test and my law tutorial. i so guai rite...LOL....tat's because i am forced to. haha...yesterday was the best IS that i ever have this sem because went from 3 to 4+ cos we was let to go home after we had finish. so good lor! haha...today, school was not good at all. there is so many hours of lectures. the first two tutorials really spoil my day because i can't cope well with what the lecturer have teach. something did happen but i am not going to say it anymore.
i am so frustrated with doing the permit thing for night cycling just now. there are so many details that i don't know but still have to fill in. but thanks to weiliang for lending me his singpass lor, if not i am not able to do the permit thingy already. i think chinwei is going to get pissed off by me cos i keep on calling him to ask questions. LOL... but it's so mafan lor. i thought submitting the form then almost finish already but then when i called the person, she say that have to wait for their call for further instructions. haiz... hope this thing can be settled fast. i really feel quite bad when eileen stays back with me cos her mum don't allow her to come home late one. hope she won't get scolding!
i am so disappointed with someone! it's okay for him to be saying things in a straight forward way already but now he is criticising someone's effort. he don't know how much effort one have made to do all those stuffs. it's just so unfair!! they don't get to do those stuffs so they don't know how hard it is. how would he feel if he was put in the same shoes??(i am not referring to you!! haha...)
sometimes, i really cannot stand my brother lah. he is so annoying! everytime keep peeping into my lappy stuffs. thought there is secret information for him meh? like that is enough already but just now he really pissed me off by closing the window that i am blogging. please lor...i took so long to blog halfway and then i was away for a while and he took my lappy to see his own stuffs and even went to close my window when i did not save what i have just blogged. make me have to blog again. waste my time lah!!
OMG!! this weekend, there is so many stuffs for me to complete. i have to find 10 newspaper articles and do law tutorial 3. everything involves law. haiz!! i am so scare i can't finish cos i am going out the whole day tml. so i am left only with sunday to complete. die lah... hope i can do finish all by monday!!
"SOONER OR LATER, THE TRUTH WILL BE REVEALED!!"
9:34 PM
i have finished taking my 'O' level english. the overall paper was okay except that i used the wrong format for my report writing. hope that i can pass!! this morning, was suppose to meet with suzanne at 6.15am to eat breakfast at macdonald but but i was late cos i don't know why i overslept till 6am. then i messaged her but she was already at the bus stop. so i quickly rushed down but was still 10minutes late. after eating breakfast, went to take train to the school and we were so early but it's good cos i get to calm down myself first. oh ya...i want to thanks those who have wished me. thanks all of ya!! after exams, went to eat lunch with suzanne and went home. i really like the free time that i had at home cos there was no restriction and i get to do the things that i want to do. but there is still law tutorial waiting for me to complete. i am soo lazy to do! tomorrow will be IS again and i am not looking forward to it. haiz!!
i am so happy today!! haha...that's just some words that i have typed. so long never write that i am happy in my blog already. haha... later people will think that my everyday life is so bad.
anyway, i am so looking forward to this sat cos can go out with the moviefreaks!! yeah!!
"WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND!!"
8:33 PM
ya....i am back home from school. it's so tiring and my mood was real bad in school today. i don't know why but suddenly i just feel quite sad. had our CRM presentation and overall was okay. during the video part, eileen, jason and me ran out of the room cos we were feeling so paiseh to watch the video. haha... tomorrow will be taking the english 'O' level paper 1 and 2. i am quite scare now cos i haven been practicing english for quite a long time already. hope that i am able to answer all the questions confidentally. i just hope i can get a C6 and i will be happy. good luck to me and also suzanne who will also be taking the paper tomorrow with me!! not forgetting gen... haha...good luck to her physics paper too!!
haha...i think i better go off to study my english!! shall post again tomorrow :)
"HUMAN BEINGS ARE NEVER HAPPY EVERYDAY BUT JUST A FEW MOMENTS OF HAPPY MOMENTS WILL ALSO NOT BE ENOUGH!!"
6:02 PM
what's the meaning of this??
omg!! i am so stressed up this week that i can't find enough space to breathe in and out. there are so many assignments for me to complete and even more stuffs are piling up for me to finish. why is it that last time when i am so free, nothing is there for me to complete. but now when suddenly there is so many assignments to do, there are other things which are more than assignments waiting for me. i feel like dying lah!!
List of things to be done this week:
-crm presentation which is tomorrow
-'O' level english exams on wed
-law tutorials to be rewritten as the
previous one was too messy
-calling the traffic police to apply
permit for the night cycling trip
-submitting the outline for comm toolkit
before thursday
haiz...so many stuffs to do. i don't want to live anymore!! so stress lah. i don't see myself so stress during the last semester. life seems to be more fun in the past than it is now. i don't quite understand what the lecturer is teaching now already. hope i can just cope with it and let this semester pass.
i want to go shopping...so long never go already!! hopefully, this saturday can be a shopping day because will be meeting up with the moviefreaks to celebrate huihui's birthday. so after that, maybe can go shop around. i want to buy a lot of stuffs. haha...luckily mum is gonna give me some money during this weekend. hahaha...
things are not always there for you!! so please treasure it as you won't know when you are going to regret it when the thing is no longer there already! cherish everything that you have in life!!
"SOMETHING UNEXPECTED WILL JUST SUDDENLY HAPPEN!!"
10:35 PM
oohhhlala...
i like saturday because it's not a school day. haha!! went for violin practice in the morning. learned two new songs which are silent night and canon in d. i like canon in d and i must learn it well!! haha... i like going to npstrings more than school. so after the practice, went with huiyun to meet suzanne and shijuan at suntec to go singing. haha... so long never have outing with them already. but we were late so we missed out 1 hour and so we sang from 3-7. everytime go singing, time always pass so fast! haiz...or should i say that time always pass faster when i am enjoying myself.
humans can be different at times! sometimes, we can be feeling in one way and then a few moments later, we will be feeling in another way. it's so confusing!! i hate all this feelings lah.
how good would it be if i am free from all the miseries in my life. i just hope that everything in my life can be perfect and there is no more worries. what a thing to say when i know that it is not so possible. haha...
"THE POSITIVE THINKING MINDSET IS GRADUALLY FADING AWAY!!"
11:01 PM
wat's the matter with me??
school today was tiring cos there is so many lectures in one day. i prefer last semester when we have so many breaks and then the modules are so much easier than now. haiz... during break, we went out to KAP mac to celebrate xinyu's birthday. bought her a chocolate cake at bengawan solo but we was so full to eat because the macdonald's meal is just so filling. anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY,XINYU..!!
i hate all of u!! i just hope that i can disappear from this world and get away from all these tortures. i hate being here!!
why do some people always don't think first before they speak?? to them, it might be a way to say funny stuffs but don't they know that they are getting a bit too sarcastic?? haiz...
"THE UNPREDICTABLES OF LIFE!!"
9:35 PM
the black thursday!!
i really don't like thursday lah.. haiz!! anyway, today went out early to meet eileen to eat subway at the telepark there. the chocolate cookies is really nice. haha...then went school together for IS. before taking the bus 74, there was these two persons whom i don't know called me. they took turns talking to me and keep asking me where am i and then want me to tell them about don't know what topic. i was so blur lah and i told them they called the wrong person but they still don't wanna hang out and insist that they know me. they keep telling me "don't 'gei gao' lah, u surely know who i am de". so i talk and talk to them for so long clarifying that i really don't know them but they still don't want to give up and so eileen asked me to hang up the call. so funny lah them! after that, they smsed me and tell me that they really called the wrong person. i think they are feeling really paiseh lor. haha... the funny thing was how did they know my hp no. and also my name! so after reaching school, went for iac class and i was a bit late. haha... i feel so sian going to IS class. i really hate it lah!!
i am feeling so stress from all the tutorials. there is so many tutorials for me to do and i have found out that i don't really understand the modules that i am taking. i have no interest in this sem's module lah! hope that i don't break down before the exam which i am really scare i would. haiz!!
"THE UNHAPPY GIRL SEEKING FOR HER HAPPINESS!!"
11:26 PM
haha...just now in school with eileen, jason and weiliang doing crm project! so fun cos we doing the videos and the first video features jason and me. we took so many shots but the process is real funny lah..haha... after taking the video, we was slacking already cos all of us don't have the mood already. LOL!! anyway, today school day was short cos there is only two hours of econs lecture and two more hours of econs tutorial. so we only have four lessons of class. wednesday is the best day in sch.woohoooo....haha! tomorrow will be IS again. hope everything will be fine! i don't know why everytime when i think of IS i will have some phobia in it. haiz!
i am feeling so tired these few days. i seriously need more sleep! how good would it be if there are holidays now. then everyday, i can get enough sleep already. haha...LOL! this is just the thirs week of school and i am thinking of holidays already. OMG!!
"THE NEVER-ENDING TIRING DAYS!!"
3:40 PM
