the meeny teeny mini...
i don't know what is happening to me today. suddenly feel so stress up after school ends. feeling so tired but there is so many things for me to complete. there is the econs tutorial which is due on wed, law which i have to find a total of 10 mewspaper articles and crm which i have to find more info on. anyway, today's lesson was fine except that i wasn't really concentrating. the first lesson was els lecture and luckily it is just 1 hour. after that was internet web design and i didn't listen to the teaching cos i was sitting in class transferring songs into my lappy. haha... it is so strange that the teacher never reprimand us for not concentrating especially when the earpiece is in my ears and so many of us was sitting there moving the mouse. it's so obvious that we am not listening to what he is saying lor. then it was law tutorial and mrs lee went through the the tutorial questions with us. it was so funny when she is saying stuffs about the princess hours dramas. haha... everything ended at 4pm and we waited for 1 hour before went to BE meeting. it lasted for 1 hour plus and it's home sweet home. haha...but before going home, went to the clubhouse to meet xiuli and clarice and brandon was also there. so went home with them!
sometimes, i just feel so left out. maybe it's because i am not as good as everyone else. or am i just being an 'extra' in a group. i don't know and i don't wanna know. this is making me feel so complex! why am i always feeling this way? someone, please please help me get out of all this mess that i am in now... maybe it's just better if i never choose what i have choosen! i am so scarce that i will be hating the things that i have always been looking forward to...
trying so hard to reach out but when I'd try to speak out, felt like no one could hear me. wanted to belong here but something felt so wrong here, so I pray I could breakaway...
"SICK AND TIRED OF ALL THE HAPPENINGS!"
10:49 PM